He is my Provider

I haven't been around much lately, as you can tell. Things haven't been very good around here and I tend shut down when times get hard. I know that's not the best way to handle a situation but it's how I cope. See Hubs business has been really slow, like no jobs type of slow. It kind of started right after I quit my job (perfect timing, right?) and then just kept trickling off until now, it just stopped. Hubs has been trying like crazy, going out every day looking for jobs but apparently nobody wants to rip their roof off around Thanksgiving and Christmas.

Because of our current financial situation it looks like I may be heading back to work. I struggled with this at first. I was angry and cried a lot! It's just not fair that I only got 6 months with my kids. But after some time I started warm up to the idea, I mean I do miss wearing heels and talking to adults everyday and having someone alone time. So I updated the resume, sent it out to several companies and hoping something turns up.

When the work stopped and I saw our saving acct getting smaller and smaller I started to worry. I'm a worrier by nature, always have been. I let stress overcome me to the point where I get sick. I decided I wasn't going to let that happen this time. I spent a lot of time in prayer and reading God's word and knew my God would provide. Now letting go wasn't the easiest thing for me to do, because I like to be in control but in times like this you have to have Faith! So that's what I'm doing I'm trusting in My God...

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11


It hasn't been easy and there are several times when I have taken 2 steps back but then something like this happens...


Last Sunday after church we decided to get our Christmas Tree. We had brought some cash with us, enough to tithe and purchase our tree. After we picked up the tree Bubs started complaining about being hungry. We only had $20 in our pockets and the hubs suggested we go to the a local mexican restaurant. It's good and cheap but I still wasn't sure we would be able to get out of there for $20. We were pretty wise on what we ordered and I just praying we would have enough to leave the poor waiter a tip. While we were eating a few people at the table next to us kept commenting on how cute Bugs was and played peek-a-boo with her. She of course was as charming as could be and had quickly won over a few more admirers. After we ate it was nearing nap time so Hubs suggested he take the kids to the car while I waited for the bill. I sat and sat and our waiter never came over and then the cashier walked up to me and said our bill has been taken care of and then pointed to the group who had played with Bugs earlier. With tears in my eyes, I went over and thanked them and explained how we weren't sure we would be able to afford this lunch and how much we appreciate it. The man simply said Merry Christmas. 


As I walked to the car the tear flowed, not because I was sad but because this was God showing me...He would Provide!